11 Ogos(result) :)

Assalamualaikum.




The last time I ever felt that nervous was 3 years ago.. That time I was waiting to check the result on UPU.. Still UniKL wasn't my choice at the first place.. I sent the documents because my mom told me to do so.. Because she said, who knows I might get the place to be part of UniKL.. And she was right.. The power of mom's prayer has beated everything.. I get the offer to do pharmacy in UniKL and that's where I found myself to love this course more than any other course that I thought I was in love at.. It is hard to find what suits me at that time because I received many opinions regarding what course suits me or which course suits me better.. Some said I'm good in Mathematics, some said I'm good in Science and some even encouraged me to be a teacher.. Honestly, being a teacher was my ambition back in 2006 until 2011.. But it seems like I manage to understand things and saw the effort that comes from my mom and my grandfather who didn't really wanted me to become a teacher.. Because they said it was tiring.. At that time I questioned their reactions because my mom itself is a teacher and my grandfather used to be a headmaster so they should stress me on becoming a teacher.. But maybe they know the real 'tiring' workloads of becoming such but what I see in my life now, working is tiring.. No matter what your job is, it is tiring and it should be tiring :) Being a jobless is also tiring you know haha




So I had this nervous and other unwanted feelings for a couple of days before the result is released. It was tiring to feel this.. Because it affects me in so many ways haha.. I even lost my appetite for a while because I think too much about the result.. The panic got even worse on one day before the day that is Sunday, 10 August. I had insomnia, stomach ache, and overthinking phase which causes me to feel panic even more.. But after that I did eat like I usually do hehe.. To add more, I opened the U's facebook which they had all this updates and countdown pictures which gave me all these goosebumps on my neck.. It was exciting to read all the candidates comments and knowing the fact that they were also as nervous as I am haha.. Some said they had insomnia and some even asked whether they could die because of the heart beated too fast.. This comment wins..




It was Tuesday and that means the day has come.. I only had two hours of sleeping and I woke up like a zombie.. After sending my mother, I can't even sleep in the morning.. I mean, I thought I would feel tired and that I need to have some sleep to replace my sleepless night but no.. It isn't happened.. I just happened to eat breakfast like a king, did the laundry and making myself tired because I confidently thought maybe this way would prevent me from overthink and had all this nervous feelings to at least disappeared for a while.. It works but only for a minute.. 12.00noon..So the time has come and I opened the website through my mobile phone at 12.03p.m..I told myself to stay calm and accept whatever result that might come out.. And... Alhamdulillah I got the place :D Yeayyy I manage to become a part of the U's family :D I am so grateful for this chance and that I am selected.. This has been my dream since I was 18 and Alhamdulillah Allah give me chances to feel all this.. Trust HIS plans and everything will be ok :'D:'D.   I was just too happy at that time that I screamed and can't believe that I have the chance to be one of the students :D Later I called my mom and my father and then I told him and my friends.. My parents were the happiest person at that time.. I had this good feeling of "Yes finally I can make you both happy and proud with me" :'DDDD It was the best feeling ever to see your parents happy because of you... It is just something that money can't buy :'D




I'll be leaving on this 31st August and will certainly will have to get through the orientation day(s). My blog will surely not going to be as active as how it used to.. :D






Hai mama abah.. Nanti mesti rindu nak balik selalu.. Nak duduk rumah takde kerja apa2.. Nak keluar jalan2 time weekend.. Nak makan sedap2 mama masak.. Nak cerita macam2 dengan abah bila abah balik kerja.. Nak tunggu abah depan pintu pastu berdiri belakang pintu kejutkan abah time abah balik kerja... :( (huwaaaa)


Hai arukas.. I might leave after this but.. Remember that I'll always bring "you" and "us" too kat sana and everywhere I go :D We will get through this..






Pray for me.. Assalamualaikum :)