Dreams

Assalamualaikum :)



I have that one dream that I really want to make it happen..because I love doing it so much eventhough it is tiring..but my parents and my brother doesn't really approve that..


For so many times, my parents had always always told me the same thing and I realize things that they said are the one they hope from me.


They want me to make it happen. Not because of them but for my own benefit. Often they finished their words with, "This is all for your own benefit..stand on your own. Don't hope from others.."


Baru sedar parents hopes on myself is high. Really high. Jadi tak salah kalau capai and buat apa yang mereka nak sebab after all ianya untuk kebaikan diri sendiri. Lagi bagus kalau boleh bind sekali dengan impian sendiri hehe.. Tu yang what I'm trying to prove to them currently sebelum memasuki ke alam yang lain in future. Mcm juggling between two works :)



Jarang sekali I sit and talked with my youngest brother. Rasanya dah lama tak lepak and berborak about life and future planning. Last time lepak2 was maybe 5 years ago where my older brother was there too..Time constraint.


We're too busy for this life..so the other day I followed him to the dentist. He took his MC on that day. Arriving home, I choose to sat down.


This is where those little talks went in. It was inspiring. It is. Seriously it is. I have never thought that my youngest brother ni would be so motivated in planning his future..more than me. I even felt motivated and wanna be like him as I heard all of his plans.. He wants to do this and this.. Bersyukur je we had that small talks sebab it really change the way I think.



Dulu ingat adik taknak sambung sebab he's like more into working..getting his diploma done in this year he said he wants to pursue his studies lagi.. Itu dah cukup buat kakak dia ni terkejut hehe. Lagi terkejut bila dengar his plannings in future.. Bila masa tah dia terfikir benda2 camni..



I used to think that in this life, you have to get a degree. At least. And then you work, get married, having kids and then workkkk till I dont know when. Mmg itu normal flow kan..typical.


But after reading such inspiring stories on facebook of how fresh graduates seeking for a job and the way they start on not choosing job after their convos are just amazing..they worked hard from below and then as time passed they finally got their dream job even benda tu amik masa lama.


It's okay for them because they have the experience before reaching such level..and in this matter, satisfaction are the key :)


Bayangkan bekerja bukan dalam bidang study dulu, kemudian after konvo decide untuk kerja and taknak menganggur kemudian bekerja pulak bukan dalam bidang dipelajari kemudian in future finally dapat dream job tu or dapat kerja yang gaji selesa, how to not feel satisfy :)



This change my perceptions because...there were some things happened which making me to feel motivated about ilmu ni.




Masa hari raya haritu, my relatives were asking me about ubat2..tokki tak sihat so they asked me indications, masa makan, boleh patah dua ke tak etc. Words like "lisa tau, sbb dia belajar dulu.. Lisa la bagi ubat tu.." are seriously comforting :')



Ubat2 yg ditanya tu are the simple ones..I admit I forgot some of them that I had to search about them soon after that. Not for them but for me. It's like I did that because I want to know what is it..sort of like tak puas hati dgn diri sendiri sebab tak tahu ubat tu untuk apa.



Then I came to realize ilmu masa belajar dulu tu tak sepatutnya dilupakan begitu sahaja. And disebabkan dulu selalu down sebab tak dapat sambung for this course, I have a better way of telling myself in accepting it :)



Ini semua hikmah daripada rasa tak puas hati mencari nama ubat tu.



 I told myself,



 "Just because I don't study pharmacy anymore, doesn't mean that I cannot study about it on my own self. The notes are there..tinggal nak bukak, baca balik and taknak je. Jangan merajuk dgn diri sendiri. Jangan marah dgn diri sendiri. Allah choose you to be in this way. Just because I don't pursue my pharmacy course, doesn't mean that I should just leave the ilmu, throw all notes, and forget all knowledge I got from my diploma. I can always learn everything back for my own sake..for my own knowledge. In turns, maybe I can share everything I know to the people around me too. In turns, maybe I can get a job as pharmacy assistant or working in this course ke in future." :)



Im just this weird. It took me a long time to heal from this.. The process..are..just..hard.. Lagi2 bila jumpa student yang sambung kos ni dekat u sana. I don't show my emotions. I keep it to myself, blaming myself and merajuk pastu marah sorang2.


I even became like this to him like I've never told him I am angry ke merajuk ke terasa ke I just snapped and then silent. But he always knew the reason before I told him..:D



I really think ilmu tu tak terbatas di waktu student life sahaja. Not only in university life but in THIS LIFE. Ilmu Allah tu luas.



Carilah sebanyak mana ilmu.. Ilmu menjahit ke ilmu bisnes ke ilmu menyelam ke ilmu memasak ke or anything selagi benda tu tak bercanggah dengan Islam.



Cari dan study dan amalkan ilmu yg boleh improve diri sendiri menjadi hamba Allah yang lebih baik dan ilmu yang memberi manfaat utk semua orang..



Bind it with experience. Do any kind of jobs.seek experience. Biar penat tapi penat yang berpengalaman yg terbaik untuk diri sendiri. Move. Move out of your comfort zone.



You can only plan what to do in your life, but Allah also has a better plans for you :)

Still loving pharmacy and, will always be :)

It makes me happy when people ask me how to take this ubat.. How to apply.. On what time.. Apa kegunaan dia.. I love explaining to them :)




Eventhough tak amik farmasi dah, Alhamdulillah masih dapat merasa share ilmu pasal ubat dengan orang sekeliling. I feel appreciated kejap haha. Betul la bila orang kata ilmu tu tak terbatas masa kita belajar tu je, kalau guna betul2 lepas habis belajar still boleh guna and share dengan orang.




I used to feel down sebab tak dapat sambung. Lagi2 course yang ni amik masa 4 tahun but I can see the hikmah behind all these. Even orang kata lama lagi sebab habis degree pun umur nanti dah pertengahan 20-an insyaAllah, tapi selalu mintak hati ni kuat bila orang kata camtu. Anggap je dorang ni tak sabar nak tengok kita gembira naik pelamin tu hehe :)



My prinsip is, kalau kita nak gembira kita kena fikir baik2 and ada sikap yang baik. InsyaAllah nanti orang2 sekeliling kita pun datang and cakap yang baik2 je dengan kita.

Hello semester 2/2016!

Assalamualaikum :)

SubhanALLAH cantiknya!!! *amik dari google hehe*




Dah lamaaa nak share perkembangan terbaru pasal semester dua ni tapi selalu je terbantut. Kadang2 lupa, kadang2 rasa nak buat benda lain dulu pastu tangguh camtu je lol



Semester dua ni paling memenatkan so far.


Genetic, Calculus, Inorganic chemistry, pengakap, Bm, Bi.


Itulah subjek-subjek semester nih.



Di hati ini selalu je berharap agar cepatlah berakhir sem ni..dan latest update is I have this thought of nak drop Calculus..It is just that hard...Tapi masih dalam pertimbangan tapi sebenarnya hati memang dah ke arah nak drop tu dah cuma tunggu masa je haha.






Bercakap pasal jadual, ianya lebih hectic sikit dari semester lepas..



Isnin - kelas 9-10, 10-11, 11-12.
Ada gap sepuluh minit in between and Alhamdulillah tempat setiap kuliah tu berdekatan so biasanya sampai on time..

Selasa - hari penat pertama.
8-10, 10-1, 2-3, 3-4. Kelas berterusan dari pagi sehingga ke petang. Jam 10-1 tu lab dan lab hanya berlaku dua minggu sekali so kalau kena yang hari takde lab tu maka jadual Selasa akan lapang..Masa ni kalau bab lunch ke apa mmg kena rush sikit or biasanya lunch tu akan ditinggalkan and terus ke kelas..then balik bilik baru makan. Kiranya gabung terus dengan dinner :D



Rabu- hari penat kedua.
9-10, 12-1, 5-6 . Rabu ni hari yang pack jugak cuma tak sepenuh hari Selasa. However ianya masih pack sebab ada kelas di hujungnya tu.. Mengantuknya takyah cakap dah lah kelas Genetic..;D



Khamis - hari freeeeeeeee.
Hanya ada kelas pagi 8-10 kemudian free. Eh ada koko jam 5-7 tapi masih dikira free jugak. Koko tu bila rasa malas nk pergi, mesti pujuk diri supaya selalu ingat yang koko ni macam hari exercise.. Yela hari lain dah penuh dgn kelas so bila ada koko boleh aktifkan badan ni balik :D

I love pengakap..Even selalu protes pasal uniform dia atas sebab-sebab tertentu tapi sayang sangat dengan pengakap..Dalam banyak2 badan beruniform, still tak tahu kenapa pilih pengakap. Maybe sebab ada kaitan dengan pandu puteri dulu kot :) And I can't wait for the camp!



Jumaat - hari penat ketiga
8-10, 10-11, 3-4, 4-5. Kalau nak compare rabu dgn jumaat, jumaat lagi pack sebab lebih satu kelas daripada hari selasa.. Tapi papepun masih pack jugak..






Alhamdulillah untuk semua kesibukan untuk semester ni. Banyak kesedaran and petunjuk yang Allah bagi.. iaitu masa. Betapa pentingnya masa tu sampai la on point yang kita tahu sebenarnya masa yang kita ada tu is limited. And the fact that semua orang ada 24 jam. It depends on what we do with our time. Boleh jadi orang yang sibuk tu lagi menggunakan masa dia dengan bermanfaat daripada orang yang masanya terluang..




Selalu je kagum dengan para doktor yang masih meluangkan masa dengan baca Al-Quran, pergi ceramah and do everything yang kadang2 akan membuatkan kita tertanya-tanya ,



" Macam mana dorang ni boleh ada masa sedangkan dorang kena study, baca banyak bahan-bahan pasal perubatan yet they still have time untuk perkara-perkara macam ni.. Diri sendiri yang bukan doktor ni pun berkira-kira nak pergi.. Hebatnyaa Ya Allah.."




And still, they succeed :)

Kelapangan masa tu Allah yang bagi. Hakikat bahawa semua yang ada kat dunia ni Allah yang punya adalah sesuatu yang bagitahu kita DIRECTLY yang kita ni takde apa-apa..






Semuanya Allah bagi.. Amazing sangat bila ada kakak-kakak doktor tu dorang bagitahu,

"Bila kita percaya kat Allah yang Allah akan beri kelapangan masa tu, trust me Allah akan bagi.. :)"

***Jom kita sama-sama cuba jaga masa kita..sebelum tidur tu plan apa kita nak buat untuk keesokan harinya so esok just refer je apa yang kita nak buat :) 

Till then, jaga Allah :) Assalamualaikum.

A baby step is better than taking no step - at all

ringkasan of this long entry*****

"Praktis dua benda ni :

-- Sebelum nak buat apa-apa, tahu apa dan kenapa kita buat sesuatu tu. And dia boleh naikkan iman tak?

--Tanya pada diri, apa perasaan kita pada Allah harini.. sedih ke, bersyukur ke, gembira ke, stress ke...

******

Ada satu hari tu, aku tengah rehat-rehat dalam bilik. Takde buat apa la ni..kemudian ada seorang classmate aku whatsapp. Katanya ada usrah dekat surau bawah. Dalam hati aku, nak pergi ke tak eh nak ke tak eh sebab aku free je malam tu. Tapi entah kenapa aku takde rasa nak pergi..Alasan nombor satu aku taknak pergi adalah sebab -nak study. Pastu aku reply "lepas maghrib lisa turun insyaAllah". Kena paksa jugak ni hati aku pujuk suruh pergi. Try test tengok..so aku pun turun la dengan bersiap ala kadar sebab dalam bangunan tu je suraunya. 

Dalam perjalanan tu aku risau takut usrah ni habis lambat padahal dua jam je pun. And sebenarnya kalau aku study pun, takde maknanya dua jam tu aku boleh fokus. Kalau duduk library, ye memang boleh fokus. Kalau kat bilik, sejam setengah paling lama boleh fokus and itu pun dengan keadaan yang takde roomate. Eh bukan maksudnya roomate aku ni menganggu ke apa cuma aku lagi suka study sorang and sunyi sepi :) Aku turun tu dengan hati yang terpaksa gila. Macam kena paksa betul la ni tapi aku pergi jugak la sebab first aku free walaupun tak ikhlas pun masa pergi tu fikir study la takut habis lambat la apa la, kedua sebab classmate aku ajak sebab kami kelas sama so tipu la kalau aku kata aku ada kelas ke or tak free sebab malam kott lepas maghrib mana ada kelas dah. Paling lambat kelas habis pukul 7..aku tak reti tipu jadi aku lagi sanggup buat walaupun tak ikhlas/terpaksa. Ketiga sebab aku tak pernah pergi usrah and aku ada perasaan ingin tahu sebanyak 10%. Yup 10 je haha.

***

Usrah pun habis. Tak lama pun ala dua jam je rupanya. Balik tu boleh study lagi.

**The following week*

aku ingat usrah tu setakat sehari tu je. sekali dah masuk dalam group whatsapp. mana nak lariiii takkan aku nak left. haaa nampak tak ketidakikhlasan aku dalam hal ni.

Ada usrah lagi tau next week. semua orang boleh datang tak?

isnin free tak

rabu free tak

selasa free tak

bila lisa free ye?

lisa koko bila?

ada pape tak malam ni?

malam ni free tak?

jom jumpa kejap? tak lama sejam je hehe

nak datang bilik boleh?

jom keluar makan?

ada kelas ke harini?

kelas habis pukul berapa?

jom jumpa kejap?

Semua ni serius buat aku serabut. Sebab aku tak reti susun masa aku masa mula-mula haritu. Aku rasa stress gila mana nak study, buat esaimen, pastu usrah lagi, pastu nak rehat lagi, pastu akak ni selalu ajak keluar or datang bilik. Aku rasa macam aaaaaaa taknak keluar nak study sekian terima kasih. Tapi macam aku cakap mula-mula tadi, aku jenis tak reti nak tolak walaupun aku taknak buat sesuatu benda tu and end up aku akan buat jugak walaupun TERPAKSA n TAK IKHLAS. So aku join je usrah tu setiap minggu walaupun aku terpaksa. Ada hari yang kelas full and malamnya ada usrah and aku rasa macam taknak pergi tapi aku pergi jugak sebab nak jaga hati akak and kawan2 yang lain yang dah bagi kerjasama menghadirkan diri. Mostly aku memang pergi dalam keadaan terpaksa. - tapi semua ni la sebenarnya yang banyak membantu. Banyak sangat :)

Benda yang aku paling tak suka dulu menjadi benda yang aku paling suka. Yang aku tolak dah jadi benda yang aku sendiri akan pergi cari. Aku pernah pergi rumah kakak tu and jumpa kawan2 dia. Tenang dia lain macam bila aku berada dalam rumah tu..they are sooooo warm and friendly :') Dorang layan lembut sangat and layan macam dah lama kenal padahal first time jumpa.. Betullah Nabi suruh berkawan dengan orang yang baik-baik sebab memang effect dia aku dapat rasa. Kita pun akan dengan sendirinya nak ubah..and peliknya aku tetiba perasan rasa lain tu dimana rasa terpaksa nak pergi usrah tu makin berkurangan setiap minggu..

Andddddd bila aku tak lagi menjadikan study sebagai tujuan hidup. Lain dengan dulu masa aku mula-mula baru masuk, dalam kepala hanya nak four flat pastu dapat A. Tu je yang aku tahu. Tapi bila makin lama aku pergi and dapat ilmu-ilmu baru, 

tujuan hidup - untuk Allah. Kita datang dan dicipta untuk beribadat kepada DIA.

kenapa kita sanggup spend dua jam untuk study tapi susah nak stay lama atas sejadah? 

benda-benda or aktiviti yang kita buat selama ni, pernah tak terfikir samada benda tu akan menaikkan iman kita atau just untuk membuang masa kita je? 

contohnya, tengok wayang pasal sejarah dulu - kalau untuk amik pengajaran or untuk tingkatkan keyakinan diri or apa-apa yang baik yang menjurus kepada obses dengan Allah, boleh go on dengan aktiviti tu. 

Paling simple nak buat apa-apa ingat Allah and tanya diri sendiri apa yang kita akan buat boleh tak membantu kita untuk naikkan iman and takutnya kita kepada Allah?

1) nak study -

 tujuan : (dunia) dapat 4 flat, dapat A, dapat kumpul mata untuk hostel, dapat anugerah dekan

(akhirat) ? - niat dalam hati sebelum study, nak menambahkan ilmu and supaya bila ilmu ni dipelajari boleh sampaikan pada semua orang and boleh sampaikan ilmu agama sekali. :)

2) nak basuh baju -

dunia - macam2. nak senang, esok takyah basuh la, basuh sebab esok busy, esok nak study la apa la.

akhirat - basuh sebab esok nak study -> nak study -> nak dapat A nak jadi lecturer supaya boleh sampaikan ilmu agama kat orang :)

3) nak keluar jalan2 -

dunia - beli baju sebab saja. sebab suka. sebab dah lama takde baju baru dalam almari amboi haha

akhirat - sebab apa nak keluar? kalau keluar tu boleh tak buat kita lupa Allah? membazir? buang masa? or jumpa kawan boleh eratkan persahabatan yang ingatkan kita pada Allah? atau keluar pastu solat jemaah sekali dengan kawan2 merapatkan and luangkan masa yang ada? Banyaaaak kena tanya sebelum buat pape :)

4) nak tengok tv -

dunia - sebab ada beto. sebab beto berlakon. sebab beto hensem haha. sebab boring. sebab takde kerja. sebab saja nak tengok tv. 

akhirat - rancangan tu boleh tak membuatkan kita ingat pada Allah? ataupun hanya buat kita lupa pada Allah? aurat2 lelaki dan perempuan? nafsu? dan banyaaak lagi kena tanya. Patutlah dulu aku macam pelik gila bila ustazah kata dia dan suami tak bagi anak-anak mereka tengok tv. Ustazah tu pun hanya bagi anak-anak dia dengar lagu nasyid or kalau tv pun, hanya ceramah je. Baru faham :)

5) nak mandi - dunia? akhirat?

6) nak tidur - akhirat - nak bangun tahajud, nak bangun solat awal, nak energy supaya boleh solat dengan khusyuk

7) nak dengar lagu - bagi benefit tak? lagu jenis macam mana? sebab nak dengar? 

8) nak conteng-conteng - d? a?

9) nak lepak-lepak - d? a?

10) nak beli tudung, pakai baju, dress-up semuanya. Untuk Allah atau untuk pujian manusia?  dunia atau akhirat? 

11 12 13 14 15 16 17 dan 723538937639983563573 aktiviti-aktiviti lain yang kita sendiri tahu kita buat setiap hari. 

Praktis dua benda ni :

-- Sebelum nak buat apa-apa, tahu apa dan kenapa kita buat sesuatu tu. And dia boleh naikkan iman tak?

--Tanya pada diri, apa perasaan kita pada Allah harini.. sedih ke, bersyukur ke, gembira ke, stress ke..

Banyak lagiiii aktiviti-aktiviti dalam hidup kita yang kita kadang-kadang tak tahu pun apa TUJUAN DAN KENAPA KITA BUAT BENDA TU. Mostly, aku cuma buat semua benda ni sebelum ni hanya sebab nak seronok, enjoy free time, rehat rehat sampai badan pun lesu and tak aktif. Aku juga merasakan penat yang mana kelas aku full pastu malam ada benda lain lagi and aku sampai bilik memang pukul 9 malam ke atas. Tapi yang peliknya aku penat tapi tak rasa moody malah aku rasa happy and still bertenaga. Yang ni aku pelik sebab bukan senang seorang lisa nak happy dikala penatnya dia hahaha :p  

And even aku sampai bilik jam 9 malam ke atas pun, aku merasakan jam tu seolah-olah bergerak sangat perlahan sampai aku sempat mandi and rehat pastu study dengan fokusnya selama sejam setengah and aku sempat habiskan sub topic yang susah gila nak faham. Aku macam..eh dah habis dah. Oh macamni je ke..oh senangnya. Eh kenapa tetiba rasa senang eh..:D 

Betul la janji DIA, kalau kita cari Allah, Allah akan tolong kita :)

Jaga masa. Limitkan setiap jam untuk apa and paling penting, tahu tujuan apa kita buat setiap perkara or kerja tu.

"A baby step is better than taking no step at all."

-just sharing :)

A hard, tough but always a possible journey to carry on.

Assalamualaikum.


I know I've been on personal mood for the second time along with this entry on my blog but maybe it's just because I prefer to write it this way..Unusual like how I used to I know. So I had a quite busy week and I haven't attend any groups' on this week because there's an event on the day the groups' talk and I was unable to attend.. The first thing that I felt was empty. The emptiness of I don't know what it is but I felt empty. Because I used to go for the talk every week. 


Short story short, I attend the talk today. Well it wasn't a talk but more like a sharing session and I prefer to keep the real word to myself..It felt so good and it gives me clearer vision of how I should see things differently and the fact I need to change certain thing is just one of the things that is currently running in my mind. It's like em I have to change certain things that actually will bring me impacts but I don't know how big the impact will be or whether changing it will change my life or myself or people around me or how they act towards me or anything..But I just want to change everything. It's just something that can't be postponed because it is so important in my life. It is too important. 


The first thing that I hope from people I'm going to talk with is that, I hope they will accept and understand why I did this..and the last thing is, even if they disagree with what I will do, I will keep on doing it. It sounds like a real serious thing but it is important but this is just a baby step or the first step towards everything. I can't wait to tell them and I hope they will like and support me and not forcing me to quit or bash or anything..Like I said, I'm going to keep continue doing it. Eventhough I don't know how my life will be after this, but I know it's going to be better than the past 20 years. I know this will help me in future. I know this will be hard and a tough journey to carry on, but it is always possible to do this. 


And I better start doing it now, :)



Assalamualaikum :)

7 cabang kejayaan.

Assalamualaikum.




*Ceramah Motivasi oleh Dr. Ahmad Termizi Abd Razak. Murabbi Pencetus Ummah.*

Ada 7 cara untuk dapat kejayaan.

1- Hati. Bermula dari hati adalah perkara yang paling asas untuk berjaya. Letaknya hati adalah selepas akal (atas) dan selepas hati adalah nafsu (bawah). Hati milik kita tetapi yang menggerakkannya adalah Allah SWT. Hati adalah cerminan hidup kita dan ia dicipta hanyalah untuk taat kepada Allah. Kalau hati tenang, aman damai maka senang untuk kita belajar and kita sendiri akan rasa mudah untuk buat semua perkara..sebab bila hati dah taat kepada Allah, semua benda jadi mudah. 





2- Mendampingi Al-Quran. Kalau sehari tu sibuk sangat, baca satu ayat pun jadi lah. Jangan tak baca langsung. Our soul needs Al-Quran. Perasan tak ada hari yang tiba-tiba kita terjaga pukul 3 atau 4 pagi padahal kita tak plan pun nak bangun waktu tu? Kita set alarm pukul 6 pagi tapi terjaga pukul 4 pagi? lepas tu...aaahhh malas lah subuh lambat lagi tarik selimut sambung tidur...Siapa pernah buat macam ni? Semua orang mesti pernah buat ni..Kita punya tahajud tu, bukan tahajud. Bangun buang air kemudian sambung tidur. Apa la salahnya alang-alang dah kat tandas tu, amik wudhu 2 minit, solat sunat 5 minit.. Tapi tak ramai yang buat macam ni. Kalau bangun buang air, sanggup pergi tandas walaupun tandas jauhhh hujung sana. Tapi kalau nak amik wudhu, di tangguh-tangguh. Itu tandanya Allah lah yang mengejutkan kita untuk terjaga. Bukan alarm. Bukan sesiapa. Kadang tu kita tak niat pun untuk bangun sekian-sekian tapi tiba-tiba terjaga, maka bersyukurlah terjaga di awal pagi dimana pagi yang hebat bermula dengan tahajud, solat sunat sebelum subuh, solat subuh dan dhuha. Kalau nak tidur, tidur kejap sebelum zohor. Dapat pahala lagi. Aturan yang Allah bagi tu mudah kan? :) 

Kemudian perasan tak kalau kita tak mengantuk sampai jam 2-3 pagi padahal kita perlukan tidur sangat2? Lisa pernah baca satu quote yang maybe boleh di consider, "Jika anda berjaga malam sehingga ke lewat pagi dan susah untuk tidur, mungkin sebab jiwa anda nak sangat bertemu dengan Allah, kerana itu anda masih berjaga dan sukar tidur." This is just a quote but somehow it is true. Kalau dah ada sebab2 lain macam dah tidur petang or tidur the whole day pastu malam susah tidur itu pun betul jugak but let's just ignore other reasons jap. For me, quote ni ada betulnya. Possibility tu ada. Untuk pelajar, ada tiga surah yang boleh dibaca. 

  - Surah Al-Waqiah - Surah Yasin - Surah Al- Sharh 





3- Hidup mengikut cara Islam. Patuhi semua perintah Allah. Makan makanan yang halal. Berbuat baik dengan orang sekeliling.. 





4- Cintakan Rasulullah. Untuk part ni, lisa suka tengok video Maher Zain - The Chosen One. Suka dengan cara Maher Zain interprete perilaku Rasulullah dalam video tu :) Meremang je setiap kali play lagu2 Maher Zain....:'D   Lakukan sunnah-sunnah Rasulullah.. Baca Al-Quran sampai terbit fajar. Dhuha jangan tinggal. Pelajar jangan tinggal semua amalan2 ni. Tak lama pun nak solat sunat, nak spend masa dengan Allah. Buku-buku jugak, kuliah-kuliah jugak..Ingat, kita hidup untuk siapa? Kembali untuk siapa nanti? Nanti tu bila? Bila pun kita taktau...Jawapan dia : BILA-BILA MASA 



5-  Sabar diatas ujian. Ujian tu sikit ja, jangan give up. Allah bagi ujian sebab Allah tahu kita mampu. Mana ada Allah bagi ujian yang kita tak mampu nak tanggung..Allah jaga kita, tahu setiap inci pasal kita..Yakinlah DIA tahu yang kita mampu. Hidup kalau takda ujian, tak syok lah. Asyik gembira ja, kena ada sedih-sedih, turun naik. Dari situ kita dapat pengajaran, apa tu orang putih kata. Life lessons..ka apa tah (masa ni semua gelak :D)


6- Bersyukur atas segala nikmat. Gunakan nikmat dengan baik. Nikmat bangun pagi, nikmat bergerak, nikmat makan dan banyak lagi nikmat yang Allah bagi dengan izinNYA. Rasa-rasa kalau Allah taknak bagi kita bangun, boleh ka kita bangun? Mata kita ni gerak sebab Allah..Kita mampu berjalan sebab Allah. Semuanya sebab Allah. "Maka nikmat manakah yang engkau hendak dustakan?" Pernah dengar dak ayat ni? Nikmat mana yang kita nak persoalkan? Takda satu nikmat pun yang kita boleh persoalkan.. Apa kita dapat ni ini yang kita perlukan. Untuk hidup. Untuk taat kepada Allah.



7- Istiqamah. Cuba istiqamah. Bermula dengan hati. Sebab tu peranan hati nombor satu kalau nak berjaya Jangan duk cakap pasal orang, jangan mengumpat, jangan sebarkan benda2 yang tak betul. Apa seronok sangat ka duk cerita pasal orang? Aman ke hati tu kalau selalu mengumpat? Rasa diri tu hebat sangat dah duk cerita pasal orang? Ni nak tanya la...Kalau orang duk cerita benda tak betul atau benda yang kita takmau orang cerita pasal kita ni, seronok dak? Siapa jawab ya memang pelik. Jangan buat. Senang ja nak tahan diri tu dari duk cerita pasal orang. Selalu sangka baik dengan orang. Kalau dia buat benda tak betul pun, simpan sorang-sorang. Jangan duk sebar benda buruk dia buat. Dia jahil, dan tugas kita untuk membetulkan dia dengan nasihat. Setakat yang kita mampu, kita buat. Kalau tak mampu nak nasihat, berdoa. Itu senjata selemah-lemah yang kita boleh guna untuk bantu dia. Jangan rasa kita hebat, kita pun bukan betul sangat. Kita jangan berlagak macam kita takdak buat salah apa, macam kita perfect dari segala segi, mana tahu kita pun ada tersalah cakap, terbuat benda2 yang kita sendiri tak sedar. Mesti kita harapkan dengan orang2 yang terkena dengan kita bila kita buat benda yang kita tak sengaja tu, faham dan maafkan kita. Sebab apa? Sebab kita tak sengaja. Kita tak sedar tersakitkan hati dia, termungkir janji. Ha macam tulah dalam situasi orang yang kita duk cerita tu. 

Istiqamah bab Al-Quran. Kalau mula-mula nak cuba, baca setiap hari. Walaupun satu ayat, kalau mampu baca satu muka surat. Kita ni semua mampu ja sebenaqnya kan...yang belum kahwin tu ada ja aih masa nak lepak, masa nak makan, masa nak duk saja-saja. Dah duk saja-saja tu amik wudhu, baca Al-Quran. Dapat pahala. Yang dah kahwin ni lagi seronok. Baca dengan pasangan.. Yang belum kahwin teruskan perjuangan..Yang sudah berkahwin tu tambah-tambah cawangan...walaupun baaaaaaaanyak rintangan..,..(semua gelak masa ni :'DDD) 

Luangkan masa sikit dengan Al-Quran. Janji jangan tinggal Al-Quran. Lama-lama rasa tak lengkap hari tu kalau tak baca..rasa macam alamak hari ni macam tak best la pasaipa tah.. Kemudian, upgrade action kita tu dari semasa ke semasa. Dari baca Al-Quran, cuba baca tafsir dia. Makna ayat yang kita baca..Semat dalam fikiran dan ambil pengajaran daripada ayat tersebut. Jangan tinggal Al-Quran. Bab-bab lain, cuba buat. Luangkan masa. Jaga masa sebaiknya.


Rasa-rasa kalau buat semua ni, berjaya tak kita sebagai seorang pelajar? Bukan untuk pelajar ja ni, untuk menjadi seorang manusia yang berguna. Skop yang lebih luas. Kita cari Allah, kita taat kepada Allah, Allah akan bantu kita. 





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***Ceramah dia sangat best sebab kelakar :D and some words were added but the point are still there :) Saja ja lisa kekalkan slang penang..seronok plak aih duk cakap penang. Tukaq la kot penang plak la ni :D

Entri ini diakhiri dengan, marilah menjaga hati masing2. Bila hati tenang, senang kita nak melakukan perkara 2 -7 :) Assalamualaikum!

My plane of symmetry.

A plane of symmetry is a mirror plane that cuts a molecule in half, so that one half of the molecule is a reflection of the other half. 

I look for you in everyone I met..

None can give me the feelings like you did <3

No matter how many guys I met or I befriend with, I will always compare them with you.

Your style, your smile and the way you treat me..Is just something very very hard to describe :)

#1060

#relatekimiadengancintabolehtaklol

Of third week and ambition :)

Assalamualaikum.

I'm on my break now Alhamdulillah dapat jugak rehat :) Third week adalah minggu perkenalan kepada jenis-jenis kesibukan yang bakal dilalui oleh kebanyakan pelajar first year. Sebenarnya we ourselves yang tentukan nak ke tak join aktiviti-aktiviti atau program-program yang ada. It's all on us. Kalau ikutkan hati memang nak duduk kat bilik je rehat study makan tidur tapi tak best la camtu..Peluang dah ada depan mata jadi involvekan semampu boleh. Sekarang sebab dah masuk yang ketiga, kokurikulum pun bermula setiap Isnin dan Khamis. So I need an extra energy hehehe

Semalam ada Hari Interaksi Kelanasiswa untuk intake 2015/2016. Bermula jam 8-11 malam. I had two classes before this activity..memang penat. But the program was amazing. We had this ice breaking session divided into more than four activities. It was really good getting to know new friends from other courses. My groupmates were awesome and sporting gila! We killed the cheers part eventhough we only prepared for 10 -15 minutes. Terus hilang penat walaupun balik pukul 11 malam :) 

What made me to think is..the moment where the head of the program told us to write our ambition on a piece of paper. Spontaneously my chinese friend besides me said slowly.."Ala..sy takde cita-cita la.." I laughed and I said.."Same..me too..jadilah ape-ape je nanti haha.." and she laughed and agreed. 

I already change my ambition. Boleh tak tukar? Haha. My new and permanent ambition is to make my parents happy and proud with me. I'll follow whatever that they want me to be as long as that would make they feel proud and happy and blessed for having me as their daughter hihihihi. My mother has always told me to become a lecturer in future because she said it was easy then I came to encounter the way my lecturers taught us for this past few weeks. It was so simple. 

Bring your laptop -> Insert your pendrive -> Stand in front of the students -> Explained every slides

Is it THAT simple? NO because you need to have a higher knowledge so you can answer your students' doubts about every topics. 

To be honest, at the first place I really hate it whenever I heard my mom told me to become a lecturer because my used-to-be ambition was a pharmacist but nevermind let's just skip that part.

But now, I kinda find myself.....love explaining things..talking to myself whenever I studied....and talk as if I had all this people in front of me..and suprisingly my confidence level is raising whenever I did these actions. It's like..you know..some weird things is happening but let's just wait what I will be in future :D

You know, to me don't narrow down your ambition scope. You can be whatever you want. I've seen people with degree, masters or even PhD doing business(countless) and they excel in both fields. I feel so motivated to see this thing is happening and it taught me to be an open-minded person because it's you who determines what you want to be. 

My Ecology lecturer said to us earlier this morning..

"You're gonna have to choose your major on your third year and you will need to choose 8 courses such Microbiology, Aquatic and Marine, BioTech, Zoology, Botany and many more. There are outdoor and indoor work for each of these major. You know, it is so hard to determine between your PASSION and THE WORKING DEMAND because this days it is hard to get a job that meet your passion. If you get a job that meet your passion then you need to be grateful. For me, I choose Ecology because it is my passion. I have a high interest in this subject and I get to stand here because I choose my passion. So for me, choose your passion and think deeply about the major that you are going to take. It determines the whole thing about your degree and for me, if you choose to continue with your passion you are going to succeed because the employers are searching for an employee that are passionate with their work. Not the kind of 8 to 5 working. When we choose to follow what we want, we will do it sincerely and not just by taking it as A JOB.."

I went to SPICE last weekend for an educational talk. Diana Amir, Fynn Jamal and some other inspiring people were also there.

What Diana Amir said..

"Choose your passion and stick to it..Tapi kena tengok balik minat tu bercanggah ke tak dengan apa yang Allah suruh..macam saya yang jadi pelakon dulu, memang saya minat sangat-sangat..kehidupan saya berubah totally lepas drama Sunsilk Impian..tapi itu bukan apa yang Allah suka..Jadi, ianya bagus untuk ada impian dan minat. Tapi tengok balik samada Allah redha ke tak dengan impian kita sebab at the of the day, kita semua akan mati."

What Fynn Jamal said..

"Akak masuk UIA sebab ayah suruh. Bagi akak ayah adalah segala-galanya. Kalau korang tanya akak takpe ke kalau tak ikut impian sendiri tapi melaksanakan impian orang, bagi akak itu takpe sebab ada banyak hikmah kenapa akak masuk u dulu walaupun akak tak suka. Akak rasa waste kalau akak tak membahagiakan ayah sebab ini impian dia walaupun ini bukan apa yang akak nak. Bila dah habis belajar baru akak mula melaksanakan impian sendiri and buat apa yang akak memang nak buat. So kat situ dah win-win sebab ayah akak happy akak dapat capai impian dia and akak dapat buat apa akak nak..Ianya terpulang kepada diri masing-masing. Plan untuk future itu bagus tapi jangan berharap sebab kita tak tahu apa yang jadi akan datang. Be happy with the present."

Be happy with the present.

Buat apa nak buat dulu.

Don't worry too much about the future.

Ok? :)

Some random things.....about my life....currently....that I have to meet these everyday......

Jalan setiap hari nak balik hostel kalau malas nak naik bas/bas lambat. Macam Cameron lagi2 kalau lepas hujan :D takde strawberi and coklat je haha

I love this shoes sooooooooooo much! Thank you arukas <3 :)

Kisah haritu bila kelas pukul 9 pagi tapi aku terbangun pukul 8.04 minit pagi. Perjalanan nak tunggu bas memakan masa lebih kurang half an hour so fikir la camne tak kelam kabut iols bersiap semalam. Rasa nak pakai telekung je tau pergi kelas semalam haha! Iols pakai la skirt sebab ingat tak hujan sekali hujan..so lagi la kelam kabut sebab skirt leceh sikit. Tunggu bas pertama Alhamdulillah sampai ke perhentian bas kedua jam 8.30 pagi. Tunggu bas kedua untuk ke dewan kuliah tak sampai2 gak sampai dah pukul 8.50 so iols jalan kaki je dari padang kawad dengan berpayung. Alhamdulilah pukul 9.05 minit pagi sampai2 je lecturer tak masuk lagi hihi :)

*my date* *orangdepantakde* *orangdepankatkajang* *sadlife*

<3

Sekali lagi, gambar nak naik hostel. Bezanya tadi takde orang ni ramai orang hahaha





Ok bai nak siapkan slide bio.


Assalamualaikum!

Ready keeeeeeeeeeee tuuuuuuuuu

I only have few days left until my registration date which will be the next Monday. Yes it will be held on the National Day. All documents have been prepared and arranged and not to forget I already put them in one special bag..just for the oh-a-bunch of a lot of  files together with the certificates. The clothes have been folded and I'm just waiting the right time to put them in the luggage as there are still a number of clothes that I haven't wash yet. (blame me for being so busy ehyeke busy -___-)

I know I supposed to feel excited, happy, having high self-confident, grateful and blessed and everything but  unfortunately those feelings hasn't come yet..sadly. They did come but that was like two weeks ago the moment the result was released. Right now, I feel quite anxious, nervous, low self-confidence, a little bit stress, a little bit moody, a little bit I-don't wanna do this- and you name all those negative emotions. Not really emotion..but maybe yes emotion and thinking.  

So I went back to my hometown few days ago attending my cousin's wedding and I met almost all my relatives and it was really good to see them. Because I haven't seen them for quite a time and they were asking me what I did now, have I finished my diploma study and what are my plan after this. I told them I will be pursuing my studies for another 4 years and they gave me those wow-four-years-that-was-really-really-long-because-you-already-took-the-diploma-so-why face..



They were asking me WHY...and I was like (in my mind) what is wrong with four years? I'm just 21 for my own sake. I don't know. Maybe they are afraid that I'll get married late because if I'm still alive for the next 5 years, I will be 26 and maybe at such age I would be married. They also asked me why I didn't took the same course and I told them everything. Some of them said it was a waste because I didn't continue learning my diploma course which is pharmacy and I swear it tears my heart to pieces...more than everything. T___T



I had low self-confidence after that. I kept thinking whether is it really a waste for me to learn another course for four years? They want me to get married early? They want me to finish study early so I can get married early? Why is that they didn't and never ask me whether I'm ready for such stage which carries a very huge responsibilities because once I'm married, I have to prepare myself to become a mother and just so you know, raising another human isn't an easy task. It is a lifelong process.



 But if Allah already set that I will marry early, never in my mind I would push that..Who doesn't want to get married early/at this age with a stable life?? Kan?!!! But only if.. And then, even if I'm ready, do you think my other half would be ready too? He needs to have a stable life too battling with the unstable economy currently and having to juggle everything at once at my age and at his age is not easy. If only you guys could understand...this is one of the reason why I didn't feel excited for my registration date.


 So I told him this and he did advice me with a very long message. Some of his words that I have to share were this :

1) It is not a waste for you to learn another course for another four years.. Menuntut ilmu adalah wajib. Apa-apa ilmu sekalipun. Untuk ambil kos yang sama, tanya diri sendiri sanggup atau tak untuk satu lagi usaha yang tidak ada kepastian.

2) About getting married.. no matter how early we plan, we must not forget that Allah is the one who makes everything possible. If Allah set that you will marry before you finish your studies, then you can't change that but to accept it. If Allah set that you will marry at the age of 34 or at any age, you have to accept that too. We plan but we must not forget that Allah has HIS plans too. HIS plans are better than us because HE knows everything..

3) Jangan dengar cakap orang. Ni jalan yang Allah dah tetapkan. Usaha, Istiqamah, Doa, Tawakal. 

4) Banyak pengajaran, pengalaman dan ilmu akan didapati di sana. 

5) Make your parents dream and your dream come true first. Don't waste this chance to learn another course just because you listen to some words that brings you down. 

6) Jangan terlalu fikir apa orang cakap dan apa orang nak. Just be yourself. 

7) Buat apa yang nak dibuat dulu, baru fikir hal lain.

For me actually since I wrote the previous post about this on July or June, this is okay and I already accept the fact that I can't continue to learn pharmacy because I already learned that for three years. I feel satisfied because not only I learned the theory...



I went to practical for a year and I feel happy that I learned almost everything that I want to know and that I have this a little bit of the medicines' knowledge like the pharmacy system/store/every drug sections/drugs' classification/the calculation and every single thing that I've been questioning about drugs and medicines. I love pharmacy so much. More than other course.


But I also love Biology and there hasn't any level that differ these two courses. 50-50 for these two. Right now, for this degree course is something that I love since I was in secondary school- Biology. So I guess it is okay for me to learn two things because I love both course. As for the u's itself, my parents are the happiest person on earth and I wouldn't trade anything for that. Even if I'm not so passionate about this course, I mean ONLY IF I'M NOT  but if my parents are happy with this offer I would study this just for them.


I'm just 21 and I want to do what I want to do before I have to commit with the non-stop commitment. (if u know what I mean)

Ok so the last thing is..does having a boyfriend makes you want to marry early? The answer is yes and no. Yes because who doesn't want to be together with your other half for the rest of your life? Yes because I did thought of the theme and the wedding dress and everything once I flipped through the magazines and the moment I scrolled my news feed and seeing my seniors and my friends who are at my age or older a year than me being a bride. Yes a young bride..Yes because you feel like want to do things that only married couples can do like touching each other without having to think the sin because you both already halal each other. 

WHY NO? No because I didn't achieve my dream yet. No because I'm not ready to carry the responsibilities. No because it took a lot of things that needs to be prepare like money, house and ourself itself must be filled with a good religion's knowledge and other things.. No because I didn't marry early to just for fun. No because I haven't fulfill my parents' dream yet. No because I have lots of things to do for example ; study and working on my own. No because I have to pass my parents' test and it is not easy. It's like having thousands of questions to answer. As much as I want to marry early, I realized it took a lot of things to be prepared...So I said no and having a boyfriend at this age doesn't mean you WILL be a young bride. Tak semestinya. 

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I thank you if you succeed on reading this entry. I haven't been on myself for the past few days which is something rare but I'm slowly recovering currently.. I apologize if you find that this entry was a little bit stress or it causes you to feel that I'm angry or moody or stress because that are just how myself now.


 My mind are filled with this sort of negative emotions and I hope I can move them out of my head. I hope you get something from this entry. 

I just want to stress that don't question what some people had choose to do with their life. You don't know what they have been through or how hard it was for them to get things that they have now. It took them for years (like me) to receive such offer at such u..I did this for my parents and for myself.



Don't be so negative. Don't show your reactions that might brings them down.. Their choice is what Allah has already set for them. And every single thing that they choose, if Allah wills that means it is the best for them. 

Kalau ALLAH izinkan, maknanya itu yang terbaik.

Dalam pada ALLAH izinkan, tak bermakna perjalanan hidupnya akan menjadi mudah dan gembira.

Hamba itu pasti akan diuji dengan berbagai-bagai ujian dan dugaan.

Naik turun kehidupan, bahagia dan gembira, semuanya dengan satu matlamat.....---->>>

Untuk kembali kepada-NYA.

Assalamualaikum.

#cantwaitforadipndip

#orikeameatball

#ormaybesomecookiesandawalkatthelake

#Imbeingcomplicatedagain

#dontworrybecausethiswillendsoon

#arukaswemightnotgonnaseeeachotherforacoupleofmonths

#ibegyoupleasetakecareofyourself

#iissadokishouldstopwritingbye

11 Ogos(result) :)

Assalamualaikum.




The last time I ever felt that nervous was 3 years ago.. That time I was waiting to check the result on UPU.. Still UniKL wasn't my choice at the first place.. I sent the documents because my mom told me to do so.. Because she said, who knows I might get the place to be part of UniKL.. And she was right.. The power of mom's prayer has beated everything.. I get the offer to do pharmacy in UniKL and that's where I found myself to love this course more than any other course that I thought I was in love at.. It is hard to find what suits me at that time because I received many opinions regarding what course suits me or which course suits me better.. Some said I'm good in Mathematics, some said I'm good in Science and some even encouraged me to be a teacher.. Honestly, being a teacher was my ambition back in 2006 until 2011.. But it seems like I manage to understand things and saw the effort that comes from my mom and my grandfather who didn't really wanted me to become a teacher.. Because they said it was tiring.. At that time I questioned their reactions because my mom itself is a teacher and my grandfather used to be a headmaster so they should stress me on becoming a teacher.. But maybe they know the real 'tiring' workloads of becoming such but what I see in my life now, working is tiring.. No matter what your job is, it is tiring and it should be tiring :) Being a jobless is also tiring you know haha




So I had this nervous and other unwanted feelings for a couple of days before the result is released. It was tiring to feel this.. Because it affects me in so many ways haha.. I even lost my appetite for a while because I think too much about the result.. The panic got even worse on one day before the day that is Sunday, 10 August. I had insomnia, stomach ache, and overthinking phase which causes me to feel panic even more.. But after that I did eat like I usually do hehe.. To add more, I opened the U's facebook which they had all this updates and countdown pictures which gave me all these goosebumps on my neck.. It was exciting to read all the candidates comments and knowing the fact that they were also as nervous as I am haha.. Some said they had insomnia and some even asked whether they could die because of the heart beated too fast.. This comment wins..




It was Tuesday and that means the day has come.. I only had two hours of sleeping and I woke up like a zombie.. After sending my mother, I can't even sleep in the morning.. I mean, I thought I would feel tired and that I need to have some sleep to replace my sleepless night but no.. It isn't happened.. I just happened to eat breakfast like a king, did the laundry and making myself tired because I confidently thought maybe this way would prevent me from overthink and had all this nervous feelings to at least disappeared for a while.. It works but only for a minute.. 12.00noon..So the time has come and I opened the website through my mobile phone at 12.03p.m..I told myself to stay calm and accept whatever result that might come out.. And... Alhamdulillah I got the place :D Yeayyy I manage to become a part of the U's family :D I am so grateful for this chance and that I am selected.. This has been my dream since I was 18 and Alhamdulillah Allah give me chances to feel all this.. Trust HIS plans and everything will be ok :'D:'D.   I was just too happy at that time that I screamed and can't believe that I have the chance to be one of the students :D Later I called my mom and my father and then I told him and my friends.. My parents were the happiest person at that time.. I had this good feeling of "Yes finally I can make you both happy and proud with me" :'DDDD It was the best feeling ever to see your parents happy because of you... It is just something that money can't buy :'D




I'll be leaving on this 31st August and will certainly will have to get through the orientation day(s). My blog will surely not going to be as active as how it used to.. :D






Hai mama abah.. Nanti mesti rindu nak balik selalu.. Nak duduk rumah takde kerja apa2.. Nak keluar jalan2 time weekend.. Nak makan sedap2 mama masak.. Nak cerita macam2 dengan abah bila abah balik kerja.. Nak tunggu abah depan pintu pastu berdiri belakang pintu kejutkan abah time abah balik kerja... :( (huwaaaa)


Hai arukas.. I might leave after this but.. Remember that I'll always bring "you" and "us" too kat sana and everywhere I go :D We will get through this..






Pray for me.. Assalamualaikum :)

Dunia tempat berpenat-penat.

Assalamualaikum.



Bayangkan,

Kelas pukul 8 pagi so kau kena bangun pagi pukul 6 untuk solat Subuh. Kemudian bersiap dan ke kelas. Menuntut ilmu. Another hours kau kena survive untuk belajar kemudian jam 5 lah biasanya, biasanya lah kelas habis. Tu belum masuk yang ada extra class ke apa. Yang ada kelas malam tambah lagi satu. Penat kan?

In between those hectic schedule tu kau kena menjalankan tanggungjawab kau sebagai hamba Allah jugak. Iaitu solat. Aku pernah tau rasa malas gila nak solat. Kadang2 aku rasa better aku harung je few hours kat kelas then later la solat..teruk kan? Tapi tak pernah aku buat walaupun pernah rasa macam tu sebab rasa tak tenang. Rehat biasanya dari pukul 1 sampai 2 so dalam masa tu pergi solat. On the way nak pergi solat tu Ya Allah banyaknya dugaan.. malasnya, penatnya..tapi bila air wuduk kena dekat muka, fresh je rasa. So masa rest tu la aku solat. Bila solat hati tenang. Kemudian masuk kelas balik. It was these classes la yang memenatkan. And not the prayers. Prayers tu yang membantu badan kita rehat. Every movements, rukuk, sujud tu semua membantu meregangkan otot2 kita yang dah penat duduk masa belajar. Yelah takkan ko belajar berdiri pulak kan..Tapi..anyway penat kan?



Then balik je rumah/hostel maybe kau sampai dalam pukul 8 malam ke or tak kisah la pukul berapa pun yang penting lepas kau dah mengharungi kelas seharian kau mesti balik rumah la kan. Pastu balik bukan duduk rehat. Maybe ada test or esaimen or kuiz yang kau kena get prepared untuk esoknya or the next upcoming week ke..So kat situ kau dah kena study lagi.. Tak cukup dengan yang di kelas, balik rumah kena buat additional things lagi.... Penat kan?


Tak masuk dengan yang hujung minggu kena korbankan waktu2 emas pergi berjalan or release stress lagi. Kau nak balik rumah pun fikir dua kali sebab banyak kerja tak siap. Kalau nak listkan semua benda yang memenatkan, aku rasa sampai habis pun takkan pernah cukup page ni. Tapi cukuplah aku share pengalaman belajar yang aku rasa semua orang dah/sedang melaluinya. Memang penat kan?



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Kawan2..

Pernah dengar ayat 'Dunia memang tempat berpenat-penat"?    Ya, dunia memang tempat kita semua berpenat-penat untuk dapat kehidupan yang lebih baik kat 'sana' :)




Perasan tak semua yang kita hadapi macam belajar, masalah, penat semua2 lah adalah ujian untuk kita? Ujian yang membuatkan kita cari Allah balik untuk kita mengadu semua tu pada Dia. Memang betul dunia ni tempat berpenat-penat. Menuntut ilmu pun satu jihad :)




Bila kita penat, kita cari Dia. Allah suka kita cari Dia. Allah suka kita mengadu pada Dia. Takde limit. Sebab Allah selalu ada untuk kita :) No worries bila kau mengadu pada Allah, kau boleh cerita semuanya dan kau boleh rasa Allah tu ada.. dan semestinya kau akan rasa tenang :) Allah tahu setiap inci walau sebesar zarah masalah kau, tapi Allah tetap nak kau cerita, cari Dia mengadu segalanya.... Because that is what our soul are created for  :)




So, the next time kalau kau rasa, 'I can't take this anymore' 'penatnyaa belajar' 'I quit'...



Tanamkan ayat ni..

"Dunia memang tempat berpenat-penat..Sabar wahai diri..Sikit je ni, kau boleh!"

Surah Al-Baqarah. Ayat 153.




"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mohonlah pertolongan dengan sabar dan shalat; sesungguhnya Allah adalah beserta orang-orang yang sabar."

When people asked what are your plans for the future

Assalamualaikum.


There's only one week left for practical and I don't know how to react to it. I am happy realizing the fact that I finally succeed in completing my 3 years studies as a diploma student and the fact that I managed to learn a course that I love so much. I have a full passion for this course and I never regret the fact that I spent 3 years for this :) I don't know if I get to learn this again for my degree programme and hence I am so grateful for this opportunities Alhamdulillah :)


Kadang-kadang apa yang kita rancang dulunya untuk masa hadapan (which is now) adalah yang terbaik and we want it to happen sebab kita tahu itu yang terbaik bagi diri kita. Tapi, kita sebenarnya tak tahu apa yang sebenarnya ada di hadapan and things that might blocks you from making it to happen. And that's  the thing that is happening to me now. I never knew this would happen.. Like for the first time in my life, I never thought I will have this second thoughts together with the second choices yang mana actually these choices I choose to put them last masa dulu2 plan for future. But now, this last choice la yang seems the right thing for me to do and kena dengan masa sekarang. I don't know how to react or how to feel about it because I don't know if this choices will be the right one for me. Other people's life seems so happy yet so easy but we never knew the real stories behind it.


Lagi satu, I used to think my life would be happy without problems. Some problems are okay but not the big problems. I thought life will be easier as I grew but no. Mana ada hidup tak ada masalah and you can't predict anything. Not at all.


Another thing is, I wish I have the strength to face some problems in my life. I've learned not to tell people but only with the right one where I know they would keep me stay up motivated in facing all these. Again, never in my mind I would have to face all this. Things used to be so happy but now all I see is just... I don't know how to describe. Too many things happened in one time. But I'm all grateful to have Him for me to pour my problems out, him who's always there for me through thick and thin, and my friends who keep me happy and listened to almost all my problems.



At the end of the day, you know this is life. It doesn't go the way you planned, but it goes the way Allah's plans. And all you have to do is follow the flow and be strong to whatever obstacles that might tests you in front. And I know I have to be strong for myself.



All the best for your future, dear self :) 


Assalamualaikum.

Listen or talk?

I would prefer to listen. I'm not a good talker, I mean I have this weird part of me that didn't like to talk. Used to la but now dah normal hehe. When I was in the school few years back, I had always received the "Physically if people dont know you, then they would assume you're a shy girl bcs I dont see you talk that much.." Because I dont talk that much..See and I dont really mind if people said Im a shy girl because it was me who put the gap between me and other people. It was quite hard for me to start the conversation, to start talking to people and usually I would wait for them to ask me. When actually sometimes, it was me who wanted to meet them. Weird kan ko nak jumpa org then org yg kena tanya ko dulu ape ko nak? Haha patutnya diri sendiri la start telling what do you want from them and the reason you meet them.


But that was before. I learned better now in university life and this is the biggest thing that changed me :) Self-confidence gained better, I can already start the conversation and asked people first, I can mixed and know how to blend with people although sometimes I feel awkward but I try to make as comfortable as it should be. I know this might sound ordinary to most of you but for me, this makes a huge difference in my life :)


Anddd yes I think a lot. Some people may not believe me when I say I think a lot like... Reaaaaally.. That much ke? Yes! :D


I love to think but I don't always voice out my thoughts. Only if I feel that it is important, then that is the time where I feel ok this is right and I know I have to tell people about this and this. I love making my own thoughts and think it deeply before I point it out. Maybe that is why people never told me I'm the talkative type :D That explained well why I said this blog is my another side. Because I expressed almost all my thoughts here.. Things that I keep, or things that I find it hard to tell people I usually voice it out here. Maybe just some random posts, stories, memories or some words that brings something to me I'll usually put them here. I love to express them in words, and not pictures. I know picture speaks more but maybe because I love to write and think and I want the moment I re-read them all over again, it gives me those excited or curious feelings about what are the things that will happened next. I use both but more to words :)


This blog pictures so many things to me since 2010. I use my name as my old url for this blog and I just changed it to "amindthatlights" because I find it suits me with the words "mind"  and "lights". Means I think a lot and my mind was like awake alllll the time and so it lights more like a bulb that lights.. Like that la when I think of my url at first :D I blogged them and already deleted some old posts or should I say all posts... Ok that was quite clear bcs I already delete all of them.. :D Got nothing to say anymore hehe! Till next post insyaAllah..


Assalamualaikum :)

Between what you should think or what you should do

As I scrolled down all photos in my albums, I have nothing to feel but so grateful for everything :)  No words can ever describe how I feel at the moment and it is just something that I rarely got to feel. I wish this would stay forever but hey, this is life. It has its ups and downs :) And one more thing, people leave. But for now, lets just be positive and if they even leave, Allah will surely replaced them with someone or something better :)


I used to have a bad thoughts. I mean so much.. Really it was too much. Everytime I read those "something better will come" or "Allah will give you something better in return"  or "good things come to those who wait" I would feel like if all these quotes were true, why I haven't been put in such condition? I keep questioning myself when is my turn to feel all this.. My turn to feel those "something good" or "someone better" is coming or being given to me.. I was an inpatience person inside.. Struggling to know everything till I get depressed and disappointed with myself. I felt like Im such a loser because no matter what I did, none would stay or even appreciate every efforts I did.. It was really hard. Battling between what you should do and what you should not think isn't something easy.. And so, I wait. Im starting to feel like if its really meant to be given to me, maybe that was the time where I already prepared myself or maybe that was the right time for me to receive all those gifts :) And believe me, Allah is All Knowing :) HE knows everything.. More than you will ever know.. HE will SURELY replaced and blessed you with something you will never think of.. Just be patience and positive.. It takes time for the good things to happen :)


Live your life, be happy.. It is okay to break sometimes but never let it conquers you.


Assalamualaikum :)