10 januari

The best thing I've ever heard on 10 january, my man got a new job :')

A job that he has been dreaming to get since..two years ago I guess?

Alhamdulillah :)


Everything is currently on track..
The hikmah..we can see it now.


This is a good start for you.
I am truly happy to see you happy..

I know you will do just great as you always do..
Everyone will like you..
Trust me..


Always do your best..


Congrats  ❤️

13 OGOS 2016.

First time ever ke padang..and saw him playing..

Hampir empat tahun.

Assalamualaikum :)

Bulan Oktober 2016 ni genap empat tahun saya kenal awak. Masuk UniKL Julai 2012. Tempoh empat tahun ni adalah kenal yang betul-betul kenal daripada stranger. Banyak yang saya belajar dari awak sepanjang perkenalan kita.

Tak sure samada awak ingat atau tak kita kenal dah nak masuk empat tahun sebab awak bukan jenis yang suka kira mengira nih kan hehe.. tapi bagi saya saya suka sangat kira sebab setiap tahun tu berharga :) Saja saya nak save semuanya kat sini supaya bila-bila nanti boleh baca balik. Ni pun ingat-ingat lupa time menaip ni ^-^

Waktu orientasi UniKL, awak lelaki pertama yang saya terpandang and judge playboy. Padahal ramai je lelaki lain kat situ. Bila difikir balik kenapa la saya terfikirkan awak, sampai sekarang tak ada jawapan. So it goes all the way..zaman Kledang saya nampak awak turun bas, naik bas. Awak tahu saya selalu tengok awak keluar makan malam naik kereta melalui tingkap. I always saw you. Memang sengaja pergi dekat tingkap lepas maghrib camtu semata-mata nak tengok awak haha. Paling malu bila awak tahu saya tengok so takpelah bye haha.

Ada satu moment yang mana bas nak ke u kita, and you were in front of me. I stood behind you and tulah pertama kali saya berdiri dekat. Ada banyak moment masa kita berkawan biasa tu yang membuatkan saya malu sendiri sebab awak tahu semuanya pasal saya. So takpelah malu lagi so bye haha.

Ada moment masa study week. I asked you to buy makanan kucing and I waited. Bila sampai, then awak pun pass makanan tu melalui pagar. My heart beating so fast la time tu. Nasib tak lupa segala ilmu yang dah study haha. I still remember, you wore long sleeves black shirt, black cap, seluar pun black semua lah black. And you were carrying something on your back tak ingat dah apa dia. I just smiled. Masuk rumah Allah je tahu how I felt. And awak tahu saya happy masa tu so malu lagi so takpelah bye haha.

Saya bersyukur sebab boleh berkawan dengan lelaki sebaik dan sejujur awak. Walaupun orang kata masa berkawan ni biasanya memang tak tunjuk semua tapi saya tetap percaya dengan apa yang saya rasa. So far baru berkawan setahun lebih, rasanya ujian haritu lah yang terbesar sekali. And it was all from me. Tapi betapa awak nak jugak mengaku yang itu berpunca daripada awak. Masa tu rasa serba salah sangat..In fact now pun still ada lagi rasa serba salah bila teringat and I try to learn and appreciate setiap apa je yang awak buat untuk saya. I once asked you apa dia je ujian yang biasanya orang berhubungan ni akan alami, awak jawab kita tak tahu apa akan jadi tapi akan ada ujian tu. So from now, saya cuba jaga dari segala segi supaya bila ujian tu melanda, we will always remain as a team :)

The way awak support saya, membebel bila saya cerita problems sebenarnya saya suka :) Saja perli-perli sebab jarang nak jumpa lelaki yang suka membebel ni hehe. Bila awak balik kerja penat-penat, saya cuba untuk tak kacau sebab faham awak penat tapi tuptup awak je yang selalu start dulu. Still tanya dah makan ke atau how was my day etc. When I'm on my 'leave', hanya Allah dan awak je tahu perangai saya macam mana haha. Spamming whatsapp non-stop, boleh moody tiba-tiba balas sepatah-sepatah padahal dengan abah mama saya ok je tapi bila nampak je whatsapp awak naik terus berubah jadi budak-budak. Dengan harapan awak akan pujuk + bagi perhatian. And you did :)

Bila awak balik training penat-penat, saya cuba untuk tak kacau awak jugak. So what I did was, I will wait. Wait wait wait. Kalau after 12 am tak ada means awak dah tidur and saya okay je :) Tapi macam biasa, benda tu takkan jadi sebab awak yang akan selalu tanya or start the conversation first asking me macam soalan tadi. Walaupun awak penat, tapi still awak ingat saya. In a way, saya rasa dihargai :) Always rasa dihargai. Rasa tu tetap sama macam sejak 2012 dulu. And I hope it will kekal sampai bila-bila InShaaAllah :)

I think I learned something from you. Always kena ada rasa jujur + appreciate partner. It needs two, not one :)

Now that you are working, saya tahu awak kerja sungguh-sungguh walaupun kerja tu awak kata buat badan awak malas-malas etc. Sebab awak kan suka bergerak, tak macam saya ni haha. Awak suka isi hari-hari awak dengan aktiviti yang pada saya patutnya awak rehat je duduk rumah sebab itu je cuti yang awak ada. Tapi cara kita fikir lain so ikut awak lah nak bergerak banyak-banyak pun haha. Degil awak saya boleh tahan lagi sebab bila saya membebel, that shows yang saya ni hampir tak tahan sebab risaukan awak je sebenarnya. Macam awak nak sangat main bola walaupun badan sakit2 dengan alasan bila main bola tu boleh elokkan sakit tu, em apa lagi eh. Banyak la sebenarnya. Bab migrain belum masuk lagi, still insist nak drive jugak walaupun migrain.            

-_________-"

I'm not perfect. Kadang rasa macam awak ni baik sangat untuk saya, terlalu baik tapi taknak la tengok awak dengan orang lain hahah so takpelah kita proceed k haha. Ada masa-masanya saya down pun awak akan selalu ada..bukan bermaksud family tu tak ada cuma bila di waktu-waktu tertentu saya lebih selesa share dengan awak :)

 The way awak jaga family, adik-adik pun dah cukup buat saya impress. Saya bersyukur :) Apa je benda yang awak buat tak buat saya happy? :') Saya jarang sangat bagitau sebab rasa macam tak penting so I save them here. Bila awak share masalah, itulah perkara paling best saya rasa sebab awak share dengan saya. The feeling of..oh he trusted me....Erm atau benda tu bukan big issue? Ok complicatednya saya haha. I always said kesiannya awak dapat orang pelik macam saya ;D. Seingat saya, awak tak pernah perli saya tapi saya selalu je perli awak so saya nak mintak maaf secara tertutup la kat sini. Boleh? Tu pun kalau awak baca la :p



Remember when I suddenly send,
"Awk tq utk semuanya :)"?



Entri ni sambungannya :)

Untuk 4 tahun sebelumnya, dan tahun-tahun akan datang..

Terima kasih awak :)

Semoga selalu kuat untuk bekerja!

Sincerely, 

Your very very very very very very very very very very clingy human

Assalamualaikum!

My plane of symmetry.

A plane of symmetry is a mirror plane that cuts a molecule in half, so that one half of the molecule is a reflection of the other half. 

I look for you in everyone I met..

None can give me the feelings like you did <3

No matter how many guys I met or I befriend with, I will always compare them with you.

Your style, your smile and the way you treat me..Is just something very very hard to describe :)

#1060

#relatekimiadengancintabolehtaklol

Of third week and ambition :)

Assalamualaikum.

I'm on my break now Alhamdulillah dapat jugak rehat :) Third week adalah minggu perkenalan kepada jenis-jenis kesibukan yang bakal dilalui oleh kebanyakan pelajar first year. Sebenarnya we ourselves yang tentukan nak ke tak join aktiviti-aktiviti atau program-program yang ada. It's all on us. Kalau ikutkan hati memang nak duduk kat bilik je rehat study makan tidur tapi tak best la camtu..Peluang dah ada depan mata jadi involvekan semampu boleh. Sekarang sebab dah masuk yang ketiga, kokurikulum pun bermula setiap Isnin dan Khamis. So I need an extra energy hehehe

Semalam ada Hari Interaksi Kelanasiswa untuk intake 2015/2016. Bermula jam 8-11 malam. I had two classes before this activity..memang penat. But the program was amazing. We had this ice breaking session divided into more than four activities. It was really good getting to know new friends from other courses. My groupmates were awesome and sporting gila! We killed the cheers part eventhough we only prepared for 10 -15 minutes. Terus hilang penat walaupun balik pukul 11 malam :) 

What made me to think is..the moment where the head of the program told us to write our ambition on a piece of paper. Spontaneously my chinese friend besides me said slowly.."Ala..sy takde cita-cita la.." I laughed and I said.."Same..me too..jadilah ape-ape je nanti haha.." and she laughed and agreed. 

I already change my ambition. Boleh tak tukar? Haha. My new and permanent ambition is to make my parents happy and proud with me. I'll follow whatever that they want me to be as long as that would make they feel proud and happy and blessed for having me as their daughter hihihihi. My mother has always told me to become a lecturer in future because she said it was easy then I came to encounter the way my lecturers taught us for this past few weeks. It was so simple. 

Bring your laptop -> Insert your pendrive -> Stand in front of the students -> Explained every slides

Is it THAT simple? NO because you need to have a higher knowledge so you can answer your students' doubts about every topics. 

To be honest, at the first place I really hate it whenever I heard my mom told me to become a lecturer because my used-to-be ambition was a pharmacist but nevermind let's just skip that part.

But now, I kinda find myself.....love explaining things..talking to myself whenever I studied....and talk as if I had all this people in front of me..and suprisingly my confidence level is raising whenever I did these actions. It's like..you know..some weird things is happening but let's just wait what I will be in future :D

You know, to me don't narrow down your ambition scope. You can be whatever you want. I've seen people with degree, masters or even PhD doing business(countless) and they excel in both fields. I feel so motivated to see this thing is happening and it taught me to be an open-minded person because it's you who determines what you want to be. 

My Ecology lecturer said to us earlier this morning..

"You're gonna have to choose your major on your third year and you will need to choose 8 courses such Microbiology, Aquatic and Marine, BioTech, Zoology, Botany and many more. There are outdoor and indoor work for each of these major. You know, it is so hard to determine between your PASSION and THE WORKING DEMAND because this days it is hard to get a job that meet your passion. If you get a job that meet your passion then you need to be grateful. For me, I choose Ecology because it is my passion. I have a high interest in this subject and I get to stand here because I choose my passion. So for me, choose your passion and think deeply about the major that you are going to take. It determines the whole thing about your degree and for me, if you choose to continue with your passion you are going to succeed because the employers are searching for an employee that are passionate with their work. Not the kind of 8 to 5 working. When we choose to follow what we want, we will do it sincerely and not just by taking it as A JOB.."

I went to SPICE last weekend for an educational talk. Diana Amir, Fynn Jamal and some other inspiring people were also there.

What Diana Amir said..

"Choose your passion and stick to it..Tapi kena tengok balik minat tu bercanggah ke tak dengan apa yang Allah suruh..macam saya yang jadi pelakon dulu, memang saya minat sangat-sangat..kehidupan saya berubah totally lepas drama Sunsilk Impian..tapi itu bukan apa yang Allah suka..Jadi, ianya bagus untuk ada impian dan minat. Tapi tengok balik samada Allah redha ke tak dengan impian kita sebab at the of the day, kita semua akan mati."

What Fynn Jamal said..

"Akak masuk UIA sebab ayah suruh. Bagi akak ayah adalah segala-galanya. Kalau korang tanya akak takpe ke kalau tak ikut impian sendiri tapi melaksanakan impian orang, bagi akak itu takpe sebab ada banyak hikmah kenapa akak masuk u dulu walaupun akak tak suka. Akak rasa waste kalau akak tak membahagiakan ayah sebab ini impian dia walaupun ini bukan apa yang akak nak. Bila dah habis belajar baru akak mula melaksanakan impian sendiri and buat apa yang akak memang nak buat. So kat situ dah win-win sebab ayah akak happy akak dapat capai impian dia and akak dapat buat apa akak nak..Ianya terpulang kepada diri masing-masing. Plan untuk future itu bagus tapi jangan berharap sebab kita tak tahu apa yang jadi akan datang. Be happy with the present."

Be happy with the present.

Buat apa nak buat dulu.

Don't worry too much about the future.

Ok? :)

Some random things.....about my life....currently....that I have to meet these everyday......

Jalan setiap hari nak balik hostel kalau malas nak naik bas/bas lambat. Macam Cameron lagi2 kalau lepas hujan :D takde strawberi and coklat je haha

I love this shoes sooooooooooo much! Thank you arukas <3 :)

Kisah haritu bila kelas pukul 9 pagi tapi aku terbangun pukul 8.04 minit pagi. Perjalanan nak tunggu bas memakan masa lebih kurang half an hour so fikir la camne tak kelam kabut iols bersiap semalam. Rasa nak pakai telekung je tau pergi kelas semalam haha! Iols pakai la skirt sebab ingat tak hujan sekali hujan..so lagi la kelam kabut sebab skirt leceh sikit. Tunggu bas pertama Alhamdulillah sampai ke perhentian bas kedua jam 8.30 pagi. Tunggu bas kedua untuk ke dewan kuliah tak sampai2 gak sampai dah pukul 8.50 so iols jalan kaki je dari padang kawad dengan berpayung. Alhamdulilah pukul 9.05 minit pagi sampai2 je lecturer tak masuk lagi hihi :)

*my date* *orangdepantakde* *orangdepankatkajang* *sadlife*

<3

Sekali lagi, gambar nak naik hostel. Bezanya tadi takde orang ni ramai orang hahaha





Ok bai nak siapkan slide bio.


Assalamualaikum!

11 Ogos(result) :)

Assalamualaikum.




The last time I ever felt that nervous was 3 years ago.. That time I was waiting to check the result on UPU.. Still UniKL wasn't my choice at the first place.. I sent the documents because my mom told me to do so.. Because she said, who knows I might get the place to be part of UniKL.. And she was right.. The power of mom's prayer has beated everything.. I get the offer to do pharmacy in UniKL and that's where I found myself to love this course more than any other course that I thought I was in love at.. It is hard to find what suits me at that time because I received many opinions regarding what course suits me or which course suits me better.. Some said I'm good in Mathematics, some said I'm good in Science and some even encouraged me to be a teacher.. Honestly, being a teacher was my ambition back in 2006 until 2011.. But it seems like I manage to understand things and saw the effort that comes from my mom and my grandfather who didn't really wanted me to become a teacher.. Because they said it was tiring.. At that time I questioned their reactions because my mom itself is a teacher and my grandfather used to be a headmaster so they should stress me on becoming a teacher.. But maybe they know the real 'tiring' workloads of becoming such but what I see in my life now, working is tiring.. No matter what your job is, it is tiring and it should be tiring :) Being a jobless is also tiring you know haha




So I had this nervous and other unwanted feelings for a couple of days before the result is released. It was tiring to feel this.. Because it affects me in so many ways haha.. I even lost my appetite for a while because I think too much about the result.. The panic got even worse on one day before the day that is Sunday, 10 August. I had insomnia, stomach ache, and overthinking phase which causes me to feel panic even more.. But after that I did eat like I usually do hehe.. To add more, I opened the U's facebook which they had all this updates and countdown pictures which gave me all these goosebumps on my neck.. It was exciting to read all the candidates comments and knowing the fact that they were also as nervous as I am haha.. Some said they had insomnia and some even asked whether they could die because of the heart beated too fast.. This comment wins..




It was Tuesday and that means the day has come.. I only had two hours of sleeping and I woke up like a zombie.. After sending my mother, I can't even sleep in the morning.. I mean, I thought I would feel tired and that I need to have some sleep to replace my sleepless night but no.. It isn't happened.. I just happened to eat breakfast like a king, did the laundry and making myself tired because I confidently thought maybe this way would prevent me from overthink and had all this nervous feelings to at least disappeared for a while.. It works but only for a minute.. 12.00noon..So the time has come and I opened the website through my mobile phone at 12.03p.m..I told myself to stay calm and accept whatever result that might come out.. And... Alhamdulillah I got the place :D Yeayyy I manage to become a part of the U's family :D I am so grateful for this chance and that I am selected.. This has been my dream since I was 18 and Alhamdulillah Allah give me chances to feel all this.. Trust HIS plans and everything will be ok :'D:'D.   I was just too happy at that time that I screamed and can't believe that I have the chance to be one of the students :D Later I called my mom and my father and then I told him and my friends.. My parents were the happiest person at that time.. I had this good feeling of "Yes finally I can make you both happy and proud with me" :'DDDD It was the best feeling ever to see your parents happy because of you... It is just something that money can't buy :'D




I'll be leaving on this 31st August and will certainly will have to get through the orientation day(s). My blog will surely not going to be as active as how it used to.. :D






Hai mama abah.. Nanti mesti rindu nak balik selalu.. Nak duduk rumah takde kerja apa2.. Nak keluar jalan2 time weekend.. Nak makan sedap2 mama masak.. Nak cerita macam2 dengan abah bila abah balik kerja.. Nak tunggu abah depan pintu pastu berdiri belakang pintu kejutkan abah time abah balik kerja... :( (huwaaaa)


Hai arukas.. I might leave after this but.. Remember that I'll always bring "you" and "us" too kat sana and everywhere I go :D We will get through this..






Pray for me.. Assalamualaikum :)

Of ward supply and aiskrim pasu!

Assalamualaikum.

So I am currently attached dekat ward supply and the only words that I can say is it is very tiring.. :( I don't know whether it really is tiring or not as my heart doesn't belong at this place. So nampak la kat situ kan? Haha but as the days passed, I'm trying my best to make every work done and tried to settle all of them. I couldn't run, I couldn't change and all I can do is just follow the schedule and learn. That's what the real purpose of these attachement places, to give you knowledge and experience. While me on the other hand, trying my best to pushed and complained so many things about everything like what is wrong with you girl? Should have be grateful bcs not everyone is lucky to get this opportunity of working in the hospital.. Ya I know I know.. My fault.. :/

Despite the fact that it is tiring, it also taught me so many things. Maybe yang penat tu just pagi2 tu je sebab there were so many boxes untuk disiapkan and maybe yes, part berjalan nak ambil ubat tu yang memenatkan. Sebab kadang2 ubat kat stor, kat fridge, kat atas, kat bawah.. Lots of movements. Balik kerja je mesti tidur, haaa macam dlm entri lepas la tidur sampai maghrib haha but im trying my best untuk elakkan rasa penat tu dari menguasai diri. Tak boleh ikutkan sangat badan ni, kalau ikutkan semua benda nak senang, siapa nak bagi?

So haritu, I get to taste aiskrim pasu. Hehe we search for it everywhere, two days. Mula2 dekat tasik tak jumpa, then the next day we went to the town. Alhamdulillah jumpa. It tastes so good. Rasa macam berbaloi beli even mahal but at least you get to taste kan :)  So before pergi meninggalkan Taiping bulan 5 ni, rasa complete akhirnya dapat makan dan pergi kat semuaa tempat kat Taiping.. :)

My next muet paper will be on 7 march which will be less than 8 days kot from now.. Got another one week and then Im done. Cant wait to see the result yang mana exam pun belum lagi hahaha :D InsyaAllah. Till the next entry as I don't have so much to share at the moment. Assalamualaikum :)