A hard, tough but always a possible journey to carry on.

Assalamualaikum.


I know I've been on personal mood for the second time along with this entry on my blog but maybe it's just because I prefer to write it this way..Unusual like how I used to I know. So I had a quite busy week and I haven't attend any groups' on this week because there's an event on the day the groups' talk and I was unable to attend.. The first thing that I felt was empty. The emptiness of I don't know what it is but I felt empty. Because I used to go for the talk every week. 


Short story short, I attend the talk today. Well it wasn't a talk but more like a sharing session and I prefer to keep the real word to myself..It felt so good and it gives me clearer vision of how I should see things differently and the fact I need to change certain thing is just one of the things that is currently running in my mind. It's like em I have to change certain things that actually will bring me impacts but I don't know how big the impact will be or whether changing it will change my life or myself or people around me or how they act towards me or anything..But I just want to change everything. It's just something that can't be postponed because it is so important in my life. It is too important. 


The first thing that I hope from people I'm going to talk with is that, I hope they will accept and understand why I did this..and the last thing is, even if they disagree with what I will do, I will keep on doing it. It sounds like a real serious thing but it is important but this is just a baby step or the first step towards everything. I can't wait to tell them and I hope they will like and support me and not forcing me to quit or bash or anything..Like I said, I'm going to keep continue doing it. Eventhough I don't know how my life will be after this, but I know it's going to be better than the past 20 years. I know this will help me in future. I know this will be hard and a tough journey to carry on, but it is always possible to do this. 


And I better start doing it now, :)



Assalamualaikum :)