I would prefer to listen. I'm not a good talker, I mean I have this weird part of me that didn't like to talk. Used to la but now dah normal hehe. When I was in the school few years back, I had always received the "Physically if people dont know you, then they would assume you're a shy girl bcs I dont see you talk that much.." Because I dont talk that much..See and I dont really mind if people said Im a shy girl because it was me who put the gap between me and other people. It was quite hard for me to start the conversation, to start talking to people and usually I would wait for them to ask me. When actually sometimes, it was me who wanted to meet them. Weird kan ko nak jumpa org then org yg kena tanya ko dulu ape ko nak? Haha patutnya diri sendiri la start telling what do you want from them and the reason you meet them.
But that was before. I learned better now in university life and this is the biggest thing that changed me :) Self-confidence gained better, I can already start the conversation and asked people first, I can mixed and know how to blend with people although sometimes I feel awkward but I try to make as comfortable as it should be. I know this might sound ordinary to most of you but for me, this makes a huge difference in my life :)
Anddd yes I think a lot. Some people may not believe me when I say I think a lot like... Reaaaaally.. That much ke? Yes! :D
I love to think but I don't always voice out my thoughts. Only if I feel that it is important, then that is the time where I feel ok this is right and I know I have to tell people about this and this. I love making my own thoughts and think it deeply before I point it out. Maybe that is why people never told me I'm the talkative type :D That explained well why I said this blog is my another side. Because I expressed almost all my thoughts here.. Things that I keep, or things that I find it hard to tell people I usually voice it out here. Maybe just some random posts, stories, memories or some words that brings something to me I'll usually put them here. I love to express them in words, and not pictures. I know picture speaks more but maybe because I love to write and think and I want the moment I re-read them all over again, it gives me those excited or curious feelings about what are the things that will happened next. I use both but more to words :)
This blog pictures so many things to me since 2010. I use my name as my old url for this blog and I just changed it to "amindthatlights" because I find it suits me with the words "mind" and "lights". Means I think a lot and my mind was like awake alllll the time and so it lights more like a bulb that lights.. Like that la when I think of my url at first :D I blogged them and already deleted some old posts or should I say all posts... Ok that was quite clear bcs I already delete all of them.. :D Got nothing to say anymore hehe! Till next post insyaAllah..
Assalamualaikum :)