Assalamualaikum.
There's only one week left for practical and I don't know how to react to it. I am happy realizing the fact that I finally succeed in completing my 3 years studies as a diploma student and the fact that I managed to learn a course that I love so much. I have a full passion for this course and I never regret the fact that I spent 3 years for this :) I don't know if I get to learn this again for my degree programme and hence I am so grateful for this opportunities Alhamdulillah :)
Kadang-kadang apa yang kita rancang dulunya untuk masa hadapan (which is now) adalah yang terbaik and we want it to happen sebab kita tahu itu yang terbaik bagi diri kita. Tapi, kita sebenarnya tak tahu apa yang sebenarnya ada di hadapan and things that might blocks you from making it to happen. And that's the thing that is happening to me now. I never knew this would happen.. Like for the first time in my life, I never thought I will have this second thoughts together with the second choices yang mana actually these choices I choose to put them last masa dulu2 plan for future. But now, this last choice la yang seems the right thing for me to do and kena dengan masa sekarang. I don't know how to react or how to feel about it because I don't know if this choices will be the right one for me. Other people's life seems so happy yet so easy but we never knew the real stories behind it.
Lagi satu, I used to think my life would be happy without problems. Some problems are okay but not the big problems. I thought life will be easier as I grew but no. Mana ada hidup tak ada masalah and you can't predict anything. Not at all.
Another thing is, I wish I have the strength to face some problems in my life. I've learned not to tell people but only with the right one where I know they would keep me stay up motivated in facing all these. Again, never in my mind I would have to face all this. Things used to be so happy but now all I see is just... I don't know how to describe. Too many things happened in one time. But I'm all grateful to have Him for me to pour my problems out, him who's always there for me through thick and thin, and my friends who keep me happy and listened to almost all my problems.
At the end of the day, you know this is life. It doesn't go the way you planned, but it goes the way Allah's plans. And all you have to do is follow the flow and be strong to whatever obstacles that might tests you in front. And I know I have to be strong for myself.
All the best for your future, dear self :)
Assalamualaikum.